Flaming June ,a cut thru and some crochet..

we continue to look for somewhere new to live,my mum is back in hospital, and I have just sent off alexs PIP benefit form to be processed and Emma's uni finance is in the last stages of being processed,so hopefully fingers crossed with all that.My blood pressure is still high and have been diagnosed with sinus infection and have spent the weekend feeling somewhat rough, but did some packing up,sorted out the toy room,and packed stuff,and went to see my fabulous Scam 69 punk  band.

sports day...

some of my scrappygan I have started...

week two of My wedding cut thru...did some of the rainbow this
week..I am enjoying stitching but my eyes arent so good now, as can only stitch for a small amount at a time.

These flowers continue to cause me headache.Been busy joining them.
So onwards for another week of uncertainty and madness,Alex has his leavers assembly and then it will be no more Dycourts school.College in september.What a long summer he is going to have. eeek!

Back to cross stitch and yarnbombing

The weather has been lovely since the start of the month of June and I have been busy creating.
The library's in my part of Essex have been yarn bombed,here are some pictures of it.Most of it were done by the Knit and Natter groups.It has made me smile to see the work, it certainly has brightened up the landscape.

wedding cut thru, I have done part of the church steeple and rainbow.

my cut thru picture when it is finished (what it will look like..)

I am back stitching again,thanks to my eye drop improving my glaucoma.I am stitching on my 'Wedding Cut Thru 'picture by Bothy threads, I am so pleased to be stitching again.I had forgotten how relaxing and satisfying it is.This is the progress after a few days ..

I have been making lots of crocheted flowers but more about them another time..I have made over 200..

me in my kind of poncho shawl... i crocheted,


We are still looking for a new home.Meanwhile I have just a handful of projects that I am working on when I get the chance,

happy June....Yarnbombing and something new...a new look to the blog...

this morning, I had to go into town, and look what I spied..........................

 Yes yarn bombing of the trees outside my local library......isnt it lovely!havent they done it well...??

 Finished..some baby clothes a few blankets for my friends daughter who has had a preemie baby....

 a blanket i made....pattern on ravelry....

lovely pink.....

here is a glimpse of some work in progress....not showing much as want it to be a surprise.
Meanwhile the chaos, that is my life goes on....I have applied for some government benefit to help support m and my boy Alex. I still have a few others to apply for ..fingers crossed...
I have the PIP form for boy Alex as he is now 16 they have sent me this enormous form and i shall be completing it Saturday when I have no distractions.
My good ole mum is out of hospital and home with dad so we popped over to see them on Sunday,she is much better for being back  in her familiar surroundings.And gasp I can breathe a little more easily now she is out of immediate danger.
We went to a fun day on Saturday (boy Alex and I)and had some BBQ ,there's nothing like a burger and a bun in the sunshine with good friends to cheer you up.
He took me to see the movie Malificent it was quite a good film, with Angelina Jolie in , it is a Disney film, quite long,two hours, but for a film aimed at children s(rated PG)it was nice to escape into a bit of fantasy.malificent movie trailer on utube.
So the hunt for somewhere to live goes on...keep creating and sending me positive moving vibes ....meanwhile a new look to the blog,just click on the top to view it the nicest way possible, classic is good and so is magazine....

about me...

When I had Alex,my son 16 years ago, I was 37.. I ended up getting seriously ill.I caught a virus..A coxshantie virus, which gave me an enlarged heart and post partum cardiomyopathy.This happened through having a caesariun, and after having pre eclampsia...
I almost died,as only 20% of my heart was working.Thankfully I responded positively to the medication, and antibiotics, which was given intravenously to me through a drip,something which has wiped out my immune system.I was in hospital from April until the end of July and only saw my dear little baby son for an hour a day when I was just about well enough to be coping with seeing him. Consequentially I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress,and depression.I ended up having to learn how to walk again, and for 3 years I was reliant on my wheelchair, and a mobility scooter.I got diabetes as my pancreas failed when my heart did.I think the only reason I survived was because of a number of things, firstly some nuns prayed for me they were in visiting the nun who was in the next bed to me and because prior to becoming pregnant with Alex I had always had hobbies that kept me active.I was physically very fit, and lived active life.
I don't often talk about when i was sick,but it was the worse experience of my life, I was so scared,I had waited so long to have a little baby,a brother for Emma and I risked leaving them both.
Unfortunately the stress of caring for me, and how I had changed since my illness my marriage got neglected and failed..Whereas I accept my role in the failure of it,I do find it hard to accept that I was not supported when it came to the in sickness and health part of my marriage.Unfortunately divorce happens frequently when the wife gets sick, and it does put a strain on mariages. II can only dream now of the life I used to have ,when I worked and meant something in society,that is why when I am settled in my new living place I am going to try to volunteer as I think I need to mean something to people other than being  a mum.
Since the serious illness I have started to inject insulin and take tablets for my diabetes, my cholesterol, and my blood pressure.In all I take ten tablets a day and do 4 injections.This is something I struggle mentally with each day.The thing with my heart condition, it is like a ticking time bomb,I could remain as I am or one day my hear would suddenly fail.It is the part oof the heart that pums the blood around the heart (the muscle)that is now weakened.That is why I am constantly tired, and being anaemic doesnt help my energy levels.It is the one thing I wish I still had, the stamina and energy..
I am also on the menopause, I have hot flushes,panic attacks, and dreadful depression all to do with my hormones,it is like being a teenager again, as I feel even more insecure and have the weird mood swings.
I have digital hearing aids, they are tiny,and very light, but I love how I can now hear better,and my tinnitus is no existant with the aids in.
I have eye droops, for the glaucoma, I have to put in drops every night, and they are the last thing I do.I also have drops as my eyes are ver dry,I am short sighted.

we are going to be moving house!

My landlord has given us notice to quit,as he wants his son to move in.So we will be moving mid July,not sure where to,yet,but probably in the same locality,fingers crossed.
I am busy packing,and making some baby clothes when not,and looking for somewhere to move to.
I have made some baby blankets and hats,some cardigans..all for a dear friend whose  daughter is expecting a baby girl very soon.I am finding I relax when I am being creative and I simply cant just stop ,not a day goes y when I am not making something.It is helping with the stress.
My mum has  been very sick(she has cancer)and has just been recovering from a major operation to remove most of it.But she is recovering well, and I am hoping to see her back at her home, soon.My dad has installed a stair lift in preparation for her return.It has been a simply dreadful time, this year has gone from bad to worse,  so lets hope that my new home will mean a new start and better luck for us all.
Alex my son leaves school in 4 weeks time, so we will send the summer in our new home and him learning independent travel.He is quite looking forward to starting college where he will be doing life skills and maths,English and IT.Looks like this year is going to be a year of new beginnings..
I have been diagnosed with glaucoma, so I have stopped stitching until I get my new specs, and find out if my eye drops are working to halt the damage that has been done.I go to the hospital next week to see the eye doctor.Living where I do,I suppose I  am fairly lucky to have access to good,free treatment.
My diabetes is not behaving itself,due to the stress I have been under,I am having high blood sugars and then some low ones.I really don't know what to do, other than drink water and take a walk, I have been having some blurred vision which is pretty weird to cope with as I am feeling like I am dizzy as  cant see right,and have been getting lots of headaches.
On a good note,I went to see my cardiologist last week at Papworth hospital, and they are pleased that I seem to have stayed the same, but he did remark my blood pressure is up, so I am on more pills for that, but I think a side effect is lower blood sugars ,tomorrow I am due back  at the docs to see if the new meds work.Unfortunately when I am under a great deal of stress I do tend to comfort eat the wrong kind of foods,which I know is totally wrong of me.I don't help myself.
I am trying to get more organised and less cluttered,I think our new home will not have so much in it,I am going to get rid of a lot of things before we move,today I packed a few boxes, and have packed a lot of my craft room up,I am so going to miss not having a room where I can do my crafting,but this place is too big for just the two of us,and i have been struggling with my garden and gardening.  
Next week sees my dear son and daughter going on holiday with their dad and floozy ,I must admit I wish I was spending some time away with them both, I resent that that woman has  got to spend time with my kids.
More and more I am accepting my now single life, and am just getting on with  things.If cupid strikes it arrow then so be it,I just am not going looking purposely for love.Talking of love,we went to my cousins wedding a few weeks ago.It was a lovely day, we enjoyed seeing the kids godmother get married to her fella, Scott..now they have gone off to honeymoon in Cuba.. oh how nice that sounds.I imagine after all the stress of the wedding they need to chill out and relax.I didn't get a honeymoon, I suppose I should have seen it as a sign of things to come!l I have a feeling my daughter Emma will be next! to get married...
Until next time, thanks for dropping by the blog and please leave a comment.

heather and scott

alex at the wedding,doesnt he look smart and happy!

Cutting the cake

Emma and Mike at the wedding.

new year..

have begun to finally get over the nasty cough and virus I have had over xmas and new year.
I have been doing some crochet...

this is about where I am up to..

It is called doily baby blanket and is on ravelry and Redheart

this was my xmas present to myself. I am doing it along with the Cut thru's which i have neglected since I have been sick.

this is my daughter emma(right) and her friend Taraa who came to stay over the holidays..

another finish

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