Flaming June ,a cut thru and some crochet..

we continue to look for somewhere new to live,my mum is back in hospital, and I have just sent off alexs PIP benefit form to be processed and Emma's uni finance is in the last stages of being processed,so hopefully fingers crossed with all that.My blood pressure is still high and have been diagnosed with sinus infection and have spent the weekend feeling somewhat rough, but did some packing up,sorted out the toy room,and packed stuff,and went to see my fabulous Scam 69 punk  band.

sports day...

some of my scrappygan I have started...

week two of My wedding cut thru...did some of the rainbow this
week..I am enjoying stitching but my eyes arent so good now, as can only stitch for a small amount at a time.

These flowers continue to cause me headache.Been busy joining them.
So onwards for another week of uncertainty and madness,Alex has his leavers assembly and then it will be no more Dycourts school.College in september.What a long summer he is going to have. eeek!

Back to cross stitch and yarnbombing

The weather has been lovely since the start of the month of June and I have been busy creating.
The library's in my part of Essex have been yarn bombed,here are some pictures of it.Most of it were done by the Knit and Natter groups.It has made me smile to see the work, it certainly has brightened up the landscape.

wedding cut thru, I have done part of the church steeple and rainbow.

my cut thru picture when it is finished (what it will look like..)

I am back stitching again,thanks to my eye drop improving my glaucoma.I am stitching on my 'Wedding Cut Thru 'picture by Bothy threads, I am so pleased to be stitching again.I had forgotten how relaxing and satisfying it is.This is the progress after a few days ..

I have been making lots of crocheted flowers but more about them another time..I have made over 200..

me in my kind of poncho shawl... i crocheted,


We are still looking for a new home.Meanwhile I have just a handful of projects that I am working on when I get the chance,

happy June....Yarnbombing and something new...a new look to the blog...

this morning, I had to go into town, and look what I spied..........................

 Yes yarn bombing of the trees outside my local library......isnt it lovely!havent they done it well...??

 Finished..some baby clothes a few blankets for my friends daughter who has had a preemie baby....

 a blanket i made....pattern on ravelry....

lovely pink.....

here is a glimpse of some work in progress....not showing much as want it to be a surprise.
Meanwhile the chaos, that is my life goes on....I have applied for some government benefit to help support m and my boy Alex. I still have a few others to apply for ..fingers crossed...
I have the PIP form for boy Alex as he is now 16 they have sent me this enormous form and i shall be completing it Saturday when I have no distractions.
My good ole mum is out of hospital and home with dad so we popped over to see them on Sunday,she is much better for being back  in her familiar surroundings.And gasp I can breathe a little more easily now she is out of immediate danger.
We went to a fun day on Saturday (boy Alex and I)and had some BBQ ,there's nothing like a burger and a bun in the sunshine with good friends to cheer you up.
He took me to see the movie Malificent it was quite a good film, with Angelina Jolie in , it is a Disney film, quite long,two hours, but for a film aimed at children s(rated PG)it was nice to escape into a bit of fantasy.malificent movie trailer on utube.
So the hunt for somewhere to live goes on...keep creating and sending me positive moving vibes ....meanwhile a new look to the blog,just click on the top to view it the nicest way possible, classic is good and so is magazine....

about me...

When I had Alex,my son 16 years ago, I was 37.. I ended up getting seriously ill.I caught a virus..A coxshantie virus, which gave me an enlarged heart and post partum cardiomyopathy.This happened through having a caesariun, and after having pre eclampsia...
I almost died,as only 20% of my heart was working.Thankfully I responded positively to the medication, and antibiotics, which was given intravenously to me through a drip,something which has wiped out my immune system.I was in hospital from April until the end of July and only saw my dear little baby son for an hour a day when I was just about well enough to be coping with seeing him. Consequentially I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress,and depression.I ended up having to learn how to walk again, and for 3 years I was reliant on my wheelchair, and a mobility scooter.I got diabetes as my pancreas failed when my heart did.I think the only reason I survived was because of a number of things, firstly some nuns prayed for me they were in visiting the nun who was in the next bed to me and because prior to becoming pregnant with Alex I had always had hobbies that kept me active.I was physically very fit, and lived active life.
I don't often talk about when i was sick,but it was the worse experience of my life, I was so scared,I had waited so long to have a little baby,a brother for Emma and I risked leaving them both.
Unfortunately the stress of caring for me, and how I had changed since my illness my marriage got neglected and failed..Whereas I accept my role in the failure of it,I do find it hard to accept that I was not supported when it came to the in sickness and health part of my marriage.Unfortunately divorce happens frequently when the wife gets sick, and it does put a strain on mariages. II can only dream now of the life I used to have ,when I worked and meant something in society,that is why when I am settled in my new living place I am going to try to volunteer as I think I need to mean something to people other than being  a mum.
Since the serious illness I have started to inject insulin and take tablets for my diabetes, my cholesterol, and my blood pressure.In all I take ten tablets a day and do 4 injections.This is something I struggle mentally with each day.The thing with my heart condition, it is like a ticking time bomb,I could remain as I am or one day my hear would suddenly fail.It is the part oof the heart that pums the blood around the heart (the muscle)that is now weakened.That is why I am constantly tired, and being anaemic doesnt help my energy levels.It is the one thing I wish I still had, the stamina and energy..
I am also on the menopause, I have hot flushes,panic attacks, and dreadful depression all to do with my hormones,it is like being a teenager again, as I feel even more insecure and have the weird mood swings.
I have digital hearing aids, they are tiny,and very light, but I love how I can now hear better,and my tinnitus is no existant with the aids in.
I have eye droops, for the glaucoma, I have to put in drops every night, and they are the last thing I do.I also have drops as my eyes are ver dry,I am short sighted.

we are going to be moving house!

My landlord has given us notice to quit,as he wants his son to move in.So we will be moving mid July,not sure where to,yet,but probably in the same locality,fingers crossed.
I am busy packing,and making some baby clothes when not,and looking for somewhere to move to.
I have made some baby blankets and hats,some cardigans..all for a dear friend whose  daughter is expecting a baby girl very soon.I am finding I relax when I am being creative and I simply cant just stop ,not a day goes y when I am not making something.It is helping with the stress.
My mum has  been very sick(she has cancer)and has just been recovering from a major operation to remove most of it.But she is recovering well, and I am hoping to see her back at her home, soon.My dad has installed a stair lift in preparation for her return.It has been a simply dreadful time, this year has gone from bad to worse,  so lets hope that my new home will mean a new start and better luck for us all.
Alex my son leaves school in 4 weeks time, so we will send the summer in our new home and him learning independent travel.He is quite looking forward to starting college where he will be doing life skills and maths,English and IT.Looks like this year is going to be a year of new beginnings..
I have been diagnosed with glaucoma, so I have stopped stitching until I get my new specs, and find out if my eye drops are working to halt the damage that has been done.I go to the hospital next week to see the eye doctor.Living where I do,I suppose I  am fairly lucky to have access to good,free treatment.
My diabetes is not behaving itself,due to the stress I have been under,I am having high blood sugars and then some low ones.I really don't know what to do, other than drink water and take a walk, I have been having some blurred vision which is pretty weird to cope with as I am feeling like I am dizzy as  cant see right,and have been getting lots of headaches.
On a good note,I went to see my cardiologist last week at Papworth hospital, and they are pleased that I seem to have stayed the same, but he did remark my blood pressure is up, so I am on more pills for that, but I think a side effect is lower blood sugars ,tomorrow I am due back  at the docs to see if the new meds work.Unfortunately when I am under a great deal of stress I do tend to comfort eat the wrong kind of foods,which I know is totally wrong of me.I don't help myself.
I am trying to get more organised and less cluttered,I think our new home will not have so much in it,I am going to get rid of a lot of things before we move,today I packed a few boxes, and have packed a lot of my craft room up,I am so going to miss not having a room where I can do my crafting,but this place is too big for just the two of us,and i have been struggling with my garden and gardening.  
Next week sees my dear son and daughter going on holiday with their dad and floozy ,I must admit I wish I was spending some time away with them both, I resent that that woman has  got to spend time with my kids.
More and more I am accepting my now single life, and am just getting on with  things.If cupid strikes it arrow then so be it,I just am not going looking purposely for love.Talking of love,we went to my cousins wedding a few weeks ago.It was a lovely day, we enjoyed seeing the kids godmother get married to her fella, Scott..now they have gone off to honeymoon in Cuba.. oh how nice that sounds.I imagine after all the stress of the wedding they need to chill out and relax.I didn't get a honeymoon, I suppose I should have seen it as a sign of things to come!l I have a feeling my daughter Emma will be next! to get married...
Until next time, thanks for dropping by the blog and please leave a comment.

heather and scott

alex at the wedding,doesnt he look smart and happy!

Cutting the cake

Emma and Mike at the wedding.

new year..

have begun to finally get over the nasty cough and virus I have had over xmas and new year.
I have been doing some crochet...

this is about where I am up to..

It is called doily baby blanket and is on ravelry and Redheart

this was my xmas present to myself. I am doing it along with the Cut thru's which i have neglected since I have been sick.

this is my daughter emma(right) and her friend Taraa who came to stay over the holidays..

another finish

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Happy New Year and my stitching plans for 2014

Happy New Year everyone.
I am thinking of my stitching plans for 2014.
I have ....WIP Haberdashers, Cut thru Bothy Threads ...

this is it in its current form after 6 weeks of stitching


also have in my stash ......The wedding Cut thru......

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I cant wait to start that one, as I have 2 weddings this year to attend...

I also have Princess Palace Cut thru

My latest kit from Bothy Threads... a christmas present to myself..

and I am doing a bookmark

Also I am doing a Gothic Fairy from Heaven and earth designs...cant find a picture at present but will do.So that is 6 kits I am doing and that means a kit a day stitching  with one day off for a rest..of course i shan't be stitching all the time, but just wanted to put in print my plans to stitch for this year. 

What are your plans...??

Meanwhile an update, I have been ill since xmas eve, with a nasty cough so lets hope it disappears as we go into the new year.Wasn't the firework display along the River Thames amazing... my daughter Emma was there...

We have had a very quiet Xmas with me feeling unwell, but now the decorations are down and away and time to start afresh. 2013 wasnt a particulary good year for me so I am optimistic this new year will be much better...

merry christmas everyone..

So the presents are wrapped  and everything is ready for Christmas day, I have a shocking cold and cough and am not well again,(blood sugars affected again).but may I wish everyone a happy christmas and soon it will be another creative new year and I shall be returning to My cut thru cross stitch, crochet and I think a spot of calligraphy, zentangle, and jewellery making come the new year.....

another present finished ..

Bobble blanket...

Another' ta- da' moment .... I finally finished my bobble blanket  I have been making...
was very easy to make bobbles are 5 trebles  per bobble....I reckon there is 150 'stripes' to the blanket and each one takes approx an hour to do. For warmth this is a very good blanket to make, its toasty!
All made in double knit and has taken me 4 months to do to the finish.Of course have been working on some other projects as well inbetween. this is a xmas present....
got 2 more things to do before xmas and then I shall be back working on the cut thru and doing some jewellery making again... 

been busy making crochet minions

he's a bit shy...

here he is

whatch out they are multiplying...

So no progress on the cut thru this week as I have been busy making these little fellas.. from the movie Dispicable Me... cute, hey...going to be xmas pressies..

week 6 and still doing it..The cut Thru... Haberdashers...

Week 6...
Have done some backstitch and rolls of material..... still loving it...
Very busy with xmas makes and xmas shopping and going for my first Xmas lunch today so this is a flying visit...

monday SAL..... progress of sorts

WEEK 5  of stitching...

So  there has been some slight progress on the haberdashers picture.I did have to do some unpicking, and hope that is the last of the unpicking on this part of the picture.I do hate to unpick, but needs must and if I make an error it will only annoy me until I make it correct.
I have done the beginning parts of the rolls of material and some of the bag which I had done all wrong.
I hadn't been too good last week as I had a throat infection caused by a virus.Some antibiotics and a week later and I am feeling more myself.
I have done some crochet on my crochet project, which I will share with you another day.
I have gained a pound(got weighed today) and that's probably because I didn't follow the weight-watcher diet too closely last week, and did next to no exercise.
So another week and hopefully better results.

Monday SAL Bothy Threads Cut Thru, The Haberdashers.. the progresss...

the finished picture will look like this..

After 4 weeks of stitching...

I am enjoying stitching on this and continuing showing my progress... it has been hard this week as i made a few mistakes on the bag and have miscounted the metalwork next to the lady. Lots of unpulling, but ..sigh I will get there in the end.Meanwhile I have taken a break from the computer as I am am now unwell with a throat infection and infected finger due to a viral infection. Now on the antibiotics which are making me feel tired.

Bothy threads have this new design which is going on my wish list for xmas.I am a coffee addict and would like to make this to go on my wall in my kitchen. Isnt it wonderful?

Have had a day doing some more stitching on my SAL Haberdashers, I had made a few mistakes so had to correct them, but slowly I am getting there with it.

Meanwhile it is a good thing to cope with the stress.

Yesterday..

Yesterday I had a day of not feeling too well.I recovered enough to go to a charity night , which was a comedy night at The Brickyard ,Romford,Essex.
http://the-brickyard.co.uk/#restaurant/
I wish I could tell you I had a nice evening but the comedians werent funny in the slightest.There was an Elvis impersonator, which may have been the best part of the evening.I had a tiny saucer size plate full of buffet food which wasnt very nice, but it was for a good cause,Crossroads, who provide respite care for me, for Alex,my son.http://www.crossroadscarehavering.org.uk/.hopefully it raised some well deserved funds.
Needless to say I did no stitching...
Today I have received some bad news about a family member so am not going to do any stitching or crochet as I am just thinking of them and the battle they face.
Tomorrow will be another fresh day.

Bothy threads cut thru SAL Monday.. my progress so far..

After 3 weeks of stitching...

The finished picture, what it will look like..

I am enjoying stitching on this.. and am going to do all the cross stitch on it and then do the backstitch.


Here is the link to the progress on the SAL's.......

http://debbiescrossstitch.blogspot.co.uk/p/bothy-threads-cut-thru-sal.html

A visit and some presents..

 Look what I got.. wool and threads from Jordan, all this for £7

A lovely pink owl necklace

Some thimbles to add to my collection, From Petra, Jordan

Alex wearing the fez from Jordan....

Today I had a lovely visit from my daughter Emma, she came bringing gifts from her holiday to Jordan, to see Taraa.We are delighted with our gifts and I am wearing my necklace, have plans for the wool and the threads and my thimbles have pride of place on my thimble collection.
We had a nice sunday dinner, pork chops, sausages,mashed potatoes, carrots, green beans, and yoghurts.
Then we went over to see my parents and then Emma has gone to see my ex, her dad.
So a nice day for us all.So now back to stitching on my SAL cut thru.....:)